I just care about you.

I care about you like crazy. You wouldn't understand or know how exactly it is that I feel. Then again, you wouldn't know. Because I don't have enough time to show you. But. I want you to know. But. Maybe after you're done with everything, I'll fully let you know.

I keep on getting texts from my ex.

He keeps texting me out of the blue. I want him to move on. Then I won't have anything to worry about him anymore. But he won't. He keeps lingering. And I don't like it at all.

Okay. The way you called me out was bad....

In fact, it was horrible. You had me scared......
But you told me to come down LBP.
Drove down to meet me on your bike.
And just told me to follow you.
As I drove down with you, I couldn't help but laugh to myself.
You caught me off guard.
You pulled into the LBP light rail parking lot.
And made me park next to you.
Then you kissed me.
Ugh. Melted into your arms. Or better yet, you melted on top of me.
It felt so good.
I don't know how you knew I missed you.
You drive me CRAZY.



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I'm gonna make my lips bleed.

You're forever making me bite my lips. You're way too cute to resist. I know you're trouble. A lot. And I'm not thinking straight right now. But I'm living in the moment. If any of my 언니's or 오빠s found out about you, they probably would kill me..... Yup. They would. But you make me smile so much. You know how to make me laugh, even when I'm upset with you. Even when I'm not happy with the situation you're in. And for the first time in a while, I'm not frustrated. I'm having fun. I told you that I didn't want a relationship because that is partially true. I don't think I have the time, nor am I in the mentality to date. I feel like dating is meant to be between people who are looking to get married. I'm not quite there yet (that's another post). But. I already told you how much I like you. And I'm hoping you know it, too. I hope I'm showing it enough. I actually wish I was there more for you because I know how you have those days. And when you have those days, I just want to snuggle you and wath you fall asleep. And I'm sorry I can't do that. But I hope you know through the little visits and the texts an th phone calls how I feel
About you. <3

You know how to get to me. I don't know if it's just the beginning stage. Cuz in the beginning, everyone's like this. My only thing is that. You're in some trouble. And. As much as I want to say no to you, I can't help but be even more drawn to you. You hav the CUTEST smile. Tattoos make me want to die! You know how to play around with me without getting mad. You know that I'm always worried about you and you appreciate it. And, you're planning on getting "out." It probably won't be easy but. You said you're going to do it so I believe you.
"I love the way we play fight. I love the way you hold me. The way you kiss my neck. The way you touch me. I try my hardest to squeeze in a little bit of you into my day whenever I can. I love texting you first thing in the morning...and how your responses come hours later -_- I love talking to you. I actually enjoy getting jealous over you. And yeah, I think you're bad news for me but. What can I do. I can't change the way I feel about you."

And. I can't say the words "I love you" to you yet because just recently realized what those three words mean, and how difficult it is to keep with it. But what I can tell you is that I REALLY REALLY do like you.






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Things have changed between us. I don't see us together in the future. And so I can't pretend anymore.

Not gonna lie. But I still hate my bf's ex.

It's so bad that she ended up in my dreams, in the middle of Jersey City, and I just sat and bitched her out. She kept on arguing but I jut kept on proving her wrong. Ugh it felt so good. Lol. So petty but it's ok.

I made a decision to go to a different church for service. So that I can understand what is going on in service. The only thing is we might see his ex. And we're gonna be going together. So. Do I just let it ride? She can't start anything in church, nor do I want to. Just for the sake that it's church. But. Knowing how immature she is, she wouldn't care. Frigg. -_-

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