Alright, sir!

First of all, you have no idea what I'm talking about so stop trying to act like a smart ass.

Second. I really need to chill. But. Didn't he tell me I don't have to worry about it? Or was that just how I interpreted it?

I went from feeling all cruddy in the morning to amazing by the end of the night.

I haven't seen you in over a week now. And I was really set on seeing you this morning. I wanted to show you what I was going to wear today. But. Fail :/ and I wanted to show off to you. I've never done that for anyone before hehe! I wanted to hear how pretty I was. And I wanted you to show me how pretty I was. But you were all working and whatnot. >:[

It wasn't funny when you texted me saying you had a confession to make. That text scared me so much. I don't even know what to compare it to. I was SO worried and I was preparing myself for the worst. I was planning my Thursday, and trying to think of who to hit up. Then. You simply told me you were working and you just wanted me. -_____- I wanted to punch you SOOO badly. Ugh. <3

You know. Just telling you today WHY it is I like you was really. New. You never asked me before and. I really didn't want to tell yoh. But yes. You are the best, daddy. ;) I want to say those three words to you. Not like I haven't thrown them at you before. But. I'm still worried. But. I do. :)

Something unexpected?

Why didn't you expect it? I've told you those three special words before. And I meant it when I said it. So. What do you mean?

Don't say those words if you don't mean it. Don't say it just because I'm saying it.

Honestly? I'm worried shitless. I'm extremely insecure right now. And I'm being SO trivial about everything. But. I don't know how to help it. Insecure because I know I'm not the hottest chick you know and you happened to fall for me pretty quickly. Worried shitless because. I know you've been cheated on, but what makes it positive that you won't just drop me for someone else? Someone better? And it doesn't help that you work all over the place at all different hours. I haven't given myself up to you because I don't want you to 1. Always expect it and 2. If something happens along the line, I don't want that connection being there. That's something I know didn't happen, and I won't ever have to think
About it. And I can go on doing my own things. Selfish? Maybe. But I'm on a mission to not make the same mistake 3 times in a row. I know you're very independent and all, but I can tell you still have a big, lonely side to you.

I love you.

I was ready to fight you today.

I told you to just text me when you were ready to stop being mean to me. And then you told me you were just pushing my buttons. And I wanted to punch you so bad. But. I couldn't help bit laugh. I can't stay mad at you!

Just the way you are.

I love the way you know me. You know how to get me (good and bad). With just simple words you know how to make me feel better. You know exactly when I need my space, you know when to smother me. I know I'm still iffy about the things going on but. I'm here with you, to watch you out of it. I'm here to watch you finish up with your "nonsense." Thank you for being patient and understanding of what's going on with my situations, and I'll try my hardest to do the same with you and yours. I've stuck it out with you so far, haven't I? I didn't have to, true. Yeah, you are dangerous for me... But that just turns me on so much more and makes me fall for you because I want to help you get out. You know what I mean? I'm not here to judge you for your mistakes. Others might but I have no right doing that. I have flaws of my own. :)